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Friday, November 21, 2003

This song is genius as a song writer I wish I would have wrote it!!

Crawling by Linkin Park

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real


there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/I can't seem


to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting/reacting
against my will I stand beside my own reflection
it's haunting how I can't seem...

to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing confusing what is real

there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing what is real
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/confusing what is real
My mom came home drunk last night and tonight! She was most likely drunk on Wednesday, but I sleep at a friends house to avoid dealing with her.

My friend Ashley has became an angel to me. We found out we have a lot more in common. I called her when my mom came home and she talked me out of doing something stupid!! Thank you Ashley if you are reading this.

School has become less important to me!! I try my best to make it day to day, but everyone wants to talk a bout the future and I don't know if my future is clear yet. Today is Friday and I am sitting at home with my little sister because my mom went out and I am babysitting!!

I lead such a great life.

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

I have issues at home. My mother is an alcoholic and my dad disappeared. That's all I am willing to share right now.

These girls at school I swear one day I will rub in their faces that I did better than them and I am a good person. I hate these girls with a passion. Its not their fault! I guess if my parents sheltered me as much as their parents do I'd be fucked up too. If I had the right parents!! Bessie and Katie, Ashley was right ya'll need a beer. You need to get a fucking life and stop being obsessed with each other!! Leave my ex alone...you stupid hoes!! He only talks to you because he is desprate since we broke up and wants pussy. Even if it's ugly ass people like ya'll.

Neil I know you wanted me to say something about you. It was pretty fucked up how you left nick stranded at my house!!! I can't stay mad at my hubby though!!

What can I say about Mike and Nick, they are my best friends and without them I would not be here right now!! I love you guys more than life!!

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